Destination - Honeymoon

Where Erik and I will be relaxing on our honeymoon ;) We are also still keeping our fingers crossed for a January 2007 trip to Costa Rica!! The Honeymoon starts the afternoon of Sept 9!! Plane tickets have already been bought!! YAHHOOOOO

I am alive

Well I am here to report I am still alive, and honestly just figured out my password today so I could get back online. I figure I will jut try to update on as many things as I can think of since it has been FOREVER since the last blog.

1. Kyle & Danielle did not win the ESPN Marriage Madness. It was kind of a bummer, but the couple who won really deserved it. K&D are getting married sometime next fall.
2. My Bachelorette party in Vegas was more than I could have imagined. It was a blast and I can honestly say I have the best friends in the world. It was too good to be true to have everyone in the same area for a few days!! I miss my girls so much. My plan is for us all to eventually end up living close together. I need to see them more than a couple times a year!
3. EC is great! He finally got his raise ($7K more a year) which is EXCELLENT!! He is really working hard. He graduates Dec 23 with his double major in Management & Marketing. He is ready to be done with school and I cannot blame him. I am proud to say he has made the Dean's list every semester since the begining. He is so smart and has really worked hard over the past few years. Working full time and going to school full time is A LOT of work. In college I could barely go to school and work 10 hour weeks.
4. I got an ipod and I LOVE it. My only complaint is I got the 2G nano. I wish I would have got the 4G. I also got this mini speaker system so I can play my music at work!
5. The wedding is less than 5 months away!! Time is really flying by. I have my dress and I love it:) I actually picked up my veil this week. I was going to post the picture of me in my dress, but EC knows of my blog and though I am sure he doesn't read it much - I don't want to chance him seeing that picture. The bridesmaid dresses are ordered and the groomsmen ties are too!! Erik and I starting putting the invitations together the past few nights. It is all starting to seem so real. I am really excited!!

My schedule the month of May is crazy. Here is what it looks like:

May 1-5 : In Helena & Kalispell for work
May 10: EC's 26th Birthday
May 11-15 EC's Bachelor party in Chicago
May 16-21 - In Seattle for my annual Controller's meeting
May 26-29 - In Denver for a bridal shower and to see Poof, Pit, Pea & Mouse

Whew!

Work is going well. LOTS of changes are on the horizon and I am more than ready for them! I have been traveling quite a bit. Working on getting a car allowance, and getting another assistant in Missoula. We will see how that all pans out. I am ranked 16th nationwide out of 178 managers. They take the top 20 to Costa Rica for a week next Jan. My fingers are crossed, but I think it is a long shot. My goals are just too steep this year. Expecting DSO of around 29, and 78% collection is just almost unheard of in the industry. I am working hard, but it is tough. I just need the 15 manager in front of me to fall back a little ;) I'll keep you posted.

Well that is all for now. Back to the daily grind ;)

PEACE

Please vote for Kyle & Danielle!!!

Hey Everyone!! Please go to http://espnradio.espn.go.com/espnradio/story?page=marriagemadness and vote for Kyle & Danielle in the wedding madness bracket. It is kind of like the NCAA tournament and Kyle has made it to the Sweet 16. I would LOVE to see him win!! Kyle is my Regional Credit Manager and is the BIGGEST Colts & Pacers fan I have ever met!! Thanks so much!!

My Ex is officially engaged

Well it was a long time coming - but weird to hear about it none the less. EA got engaged this weekend to his GF of 4 years LG. Honestly I don't feel happy/sad anything about it. Just indifferent. I wish them both a happy life together.

Seems like my realtionship with him was a lifetime ago. I guess to some extent it was. Even though I had other long term boyfriends - I can honestly look back and say he was my first true love. No matter what happened in the past, or what will happen in my future - there will always be a small part of me that cares for him. I am not sure if that will ever go away. Its not "love" I feel for him - just a fondness for the time we had together.

I feel SO lucky to have found my EC and to have been with him for almost 4 years. He is really a wonderful man, and I know it was God's plan all along that I find him. I love him more than anything in this world and I am very excited to spend the rest of my life with him. I cannot believe the wedding is in less than 6 months! Where did all the time go? I am enjoying every day of being engaged and cannot wait for my Vegas bachelorette party in a few short weeks! I miss my girls and cannot wait to see them!

Break Away..........

if melody
is my destiny
then what's left of me,i'll give to you..
and if next to me,
is all that you need to be
would you settle for fantasy,
if it's the best you could do?

can I have my cake?
can i have you too?
would you follow me?
could i ask you to?
would the world between us,
break these ties?
we worked so hardto realize..
can a postcard say,
what i see in your eyes?
could i ever break away?

would i be satisfied,
and find peace inside
rolling half my life
over broken white lines?
can i have my cake,
can i have you too?
would you follow me,
could i ask you too?

will i wake up one morning,
and see your face
and the streaks on the window,
that the rainstorm makes?
could you bear all the waiting,
and the strength that it takes?
could i ever break away?

could i ever break away?
can i have my cake?
can i have you too?
would you follow me?
could i ask you to?
would the world between us,
break these ties?
we worked so hard to realize..
can a postcard say,
what i see in your eyes?
could i ever break away?

could i ever break away?
away...away..

Having a bad day..........

First off - look at how stinkin' cute my little sister & brother are! This was Halloween 2005. Tate didn't want to wear her hoodie underneath her "fairy angel" costume because she didn't think it looked as pretty - but when you live in Colorado sweats are a must! Doesn't Jack look hilarious? I am so in love with those little munchkins!

Basically today has been one of the worst days I have had in awhile. I am not feeling good, I cannot stand my job, my GM is an idiot, the wedding funding a la my parental units has run out leaving Erik and I to pay around 7k more, Erik's 1098E hasn't come in the mail yet for his school and he needs it for our tax appt, my step-mom & real mom hate each other so much I have to have 2 bridal showers just so they both can be there, my sister told me she is not even sure if she will make my bridal shower b/c she wants to make her summer plans with her fiance first, my first call this morning was a customer we wrote off cussing his head off at me, my asst is on my LAST nerVE and after working out the past week and eating like a bird I actually gained a pound since Friday :( WYF!?!? I am just in such a horrible mood.

I have to say that the one thing today that is keeping me from crying and just going home is the fact that I can honestly say I have the best friends in the world. I don't know where I would be without them. They are always there to listen to me and all my family BS, throw 2 bridal showers for me because of my pathetic family situation & make me laugh. EC has been super cute all day. He know I am just not having a good day and he took me out to lunch and keeps checking on me every couple hours.

My job lately just really sucks. I don't get paid enough to deal with all the shit that gets thrown my way. Sad part is I am amongst the higher paid managers for the MT/WY region. I really wish my GM would do us all a favor and quit (or get fired) which ever comes first. He makes everyone's job harder than it has to be. He is also easily the WORST manager I have ever worked for in my life. I don't feel like he cares what I do - or has any interest in what I do and he takes credit for my successes. He is never here, never answers voice mail, e-mail... it is so frustrating!! My Dad said that in a year or so he is going to be looking for a project manager to help him out down in Denver/Golden. He said he wants to recruit Erik to go down there and possibly take a position with him. **DEAR GOD - PLEASE MAKE THAT A REALITY!!** I would move to CO in a second. I love Montana, but I miss my friends, my Dad, Jacky & Tate...I think my company is an excellent company to work for - but this operation in MT is not what it is supposed to be. In fact I am not sure how much longer I can take the office politics that come with working in a place like this.

OK I need to get back to work. If this headache would just go away.........

I bought my dress! AHH!!!!!

Well I did it - I bought my wedding dress! I won't post a picture of me in it - INCASE Erik decides to lurk around - but I attached a picture of it so you will get the idea. It is kind of hard to see the whole dress but it has a cathedral length train and the skirt has mini bustles all over it. They call it a "pick-up" skirt. I absolutely love the look of it. It should be in Montana in 16-20 weeks. The wedding dress makes my wedding seem VERY real to me. I am still a little overwhelmed by everything, but very excited!

Everything is coming together. The 2 main pieces we still don't have in place are the caterer & the alcohol. Other than that - we are ahead of schedule. I have had fun planning everything. Hard to believe in less than 9 months we will be married! I cannot wait!

My birthday was good. I think 26 will be a great year for me! ;) Big Sky, MT was also a BLAST for the New Year. We had such a good time! They had a great firework show. The DJ they had up there basically sucked rocks though. It was a mix of techno & elevator music. It is hard to describe - but it was so bad it literally sobered me up after drinking for 3 hours. There were a few people trying to dance, but they just looked funny. I think they realized how funny they looked and stopped "dancing" after about 3 min. If I find out who that DJ was I will post it here for a nationwide boycott. (Seriously it was THAT bad).

Well off to a sales meeting. Have a great rest of the week.